Blast From the Past...

Wow, so.....the other night I was searching through my room for an empty notebook for me to start writing a story in......and I came across one of my old journals from 2008. It's almost mind boggling how much your attitude can change in just two years....and how much more complicated life can get within two years--or maybe how much more complicated you REALIZE things are within two years. It's funny, though, how I had a little glimpse of God's grace back then. I don't even think we were talking about it in the beginning of 2008. I guess I knew back then that nothing that I could ever do would make God not love me anymore--maybe I just didn't KNOW it....This is what I wrote....


March 12, 2008

Today at school there was a speaker from YWAM (Youth With A Mission), and something he said sparked a thought in me. He was talking about the reality of heaven and hell and how he heard a speaker talk about a visit he had to heaven. When he got to heaven, angels were around him, welcoming him into the most glorious place ever created. Men, women, and children were attacking him with hugs, telling him how much they missed him. He didn't remember meeting any of them before that. The thought that sparked in my head was the mark we leave in this world. A smile, a "hello", a simple hug can mean the world to someone. Something so simple like that can leave a mark bigger than you could imagine. Not everyone will tell you the difference you made in their life. As Christians, shouldn't we be the ones "turning the world upside down"? People have a limitation of happiness. I, as a Christian--actually, better yet, I as a follower of Christ have all the reason to be joyful. Things don't always go my way, but God is my biggest fan club. Psalm 139:17-18 says that I'm always on God's mind. He is in love with me, and nothing I can do will ever change that. That alone is the source of my joy.


When will the world see the transparency of us? When will we as Christians be overflowing with a joy that isn't based on emotions that last hours but is based on a hope that is eternal? And when will we show them?
~11:18pm